This new format will have me introducing my "Big Ups" and "Big Downs" for the weeks featured. That way I can explain more into how I'm feeling and whatnot, but also include some baby highlights. Yay!
Weeks 19 Through 21
#1: I feel great! Really fantastic. I think I may actually be one of those women who enjoy pregnancy. If I can just forget those first few weeks after we found out when I was nauseous and miserable the whole the time, I may actually want to do this whole pregnancy thing a few more times! I am not nauseous at all, really ever. I have had no heartburn. A little bit of acid reflux but not anything I can't handle, and my appetite is normal. No weird cravings or aversions or anything like that.
#3: Progress is finally being made on the nursery. We still hadn't set up the Playard at this point, but C would paint on days I was out of the house or out of town for whatever reason and I'd always come home to a little more of it being done. We started slowly collecting things and adding them to our baby collection, slowly but surely!
#4: HALFWAY THERE! I remember waking up on the morning of my 20th week of pregnancy, not believe I was already halfway done! Time really seems to fly. Then I realized that I wasn't aware of the first 7 weeks of my pregnancy so I guess I am halfway there, but my conscious halfway there won't happen for a few more weeks. But it's something!
#1: While I feel great, I have issues with my body. Besides the huge breast growth, I have also grown in my thighs and my belly (of course). I know all of this is normal and what's supposed to happen, but as I grow out of the maternity clothes I bought earlier in pregnancy I start to wonder how big I'll actually get. I also don't feel attractive and when I look in the mirror I think I look fat. I don't like looking fat. I hit 150 on the scale in week 17 and then I made the mistake of weighing myself in week 19 and I was already 5 pounds above that. Which means I've about gained my ideal weight gain by 20 weeks. Yeah... not fun! I really don't want to be a 60 pound weight gainer, so I cut back on the fruit and other sugary foods as well as carbs and it's been helping, but I still feel big.
#2: I still think I'm going to be a horrible parent and don't feel ready to be one. I know many people say that you are never truly ready, even when you become a parent, I just feel like there was so much more I wanted to do with my life and time is running out to do it! Which is silly, because in reality I've done everything I have wanted to do with my life and before finding out I was pregnant was quite content with it. I think it's the hormones.
#3: C has become really, really whiny. I've heard that this can happen- where the father is affected by the hormone changes in the mother, but egads! He is really stressed because of school and stuff, but he is moodier than I am and I'm the one who's actually pregnant! When I ask him to do something I can no longer do, like carry heavy objects, you'd think I was asking him to give up his life and only live to serve me. I ask one to two favors MAYBE a day, that's not too much! I'm hoping after midterms are over he's not so darn moody all the time!
Well, I think that's really it for now. Weeks 22 and 23 brought on some interesting changes, so stay tuned for that!